{"id":10597,"date":"2024-12-27T09:41:42","date_gmt":"2024-12-27T17:41:42","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/?p=10597"},"modified":"2024-12-27T09:41:42","modified_gmt":"2024-12-27T17:41:42","slug":"fortress-of-solitude-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/?p=10597","title":{"rendered":"Fortress of Solitude"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>The Truth: I live a charmed life. Things always seem to work out for me. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>No matter how much I try to do otherwise, no matter how often I tempt fate, no matter how many times I take things to the brink of death, with dangerous qualities and destructive behaviors, pushing everyone and everything away from me, I end up watching another beautiful sunrise.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>With unique skills and aptitudes, I continuously build my life up with wonderful people and things, only to tear them down all around me. I can&#8217;t help myself. It&#8217;s a vicious cycle, always leading inexorably to emptiness &#8211; to having nothing. And nothing means a new beginning.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Happiness. I like new beginnings. I like starting over.  Sharpening my pencils for another first day at school. Nothing ever felt right yesterday, last year; and I love that feeling of hope for tomorrow, for next year. I repeat the same mantra: &#8220;Things will be better &#8211; different this time.&#8221;  <\/p>\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\">\n<figure class=\"aligncenter size-full\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"750\" height=\"500\" src=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/12\/moonstn.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-10603\" srcset=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/12\/moonstn.jpg 750w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/12\/moonstn-300x200.jpg 300w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 750px) 100vw, 750px\" \/><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-audio\"><audio controls src=\"http:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/12\/creep.mp3\"><\/audio><figcaption class=\"wp-element-caption\">Scala &amp; Kolacny Brothers; &#8216;Creep (Single)&#8217;<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>I&#8217;m leaving today. I&#8217;m going to a special place of mine. A place of solace.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I need to swallow some demons, some hungry ghosts. I need to digest life; to find some peace, some comfort, some consolation from my daily suffering. I need to go to my Fortress of Solitude, where I like to go when my undeniable truth comes up. When my crazy just can&#8217;t help but show. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I need some space, some time, some isolation. I need to walk along the coast, to say nothing, not a word. I need to watch a sunset from a quiet spot, to dig my toes and fingers into the sand. I need to watch a sunset fall beyond the sea. I need my eyes to blur with tears. I need a new focus.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Mediation. I like to listen to the song of my soul. I like tapping into that energy that guides me. Revealing my purpose and identity. Nothing ever felt right yesterday, last year; and I love that feeling of hope for tomorrow, for next year. &#8220;Things will be better &#8211; different this time.&#8221;  <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>The Truth: I live a charmed life. Things always seem to work out for me. 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