{"id":11076,"date":"2025-02-07T21:18:50","date_gmt":"2025-02-08T05:18:50","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/?p=11076"},"modified":"2025-02-07T21:18:50","modified_gmt":"2025-02-08T05:18:50","slug":"i-fucking-hate-neil-young","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/?p=11076","title":{"rendered":"I Fucking Hate Neil Young"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>A boy starts to wonder: What did I do wrong? Why doesn&#8217;t she write back? How&#8217;d I do? What was my score? Will she ever give me my grade?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>It all seems painfully odd to me. I was thoughtful. I took the time. I never take the time, but I took the time this time, and only because it was her.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Some things we&#8217;ve wrote about also make a boy wonder: Is she ever looking at the same moon? Did she ever love me? As much as I loved her?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Like a cosmic tuning lever at work, the passage of time loosened some tuning pins that were tightly wound up by trauma, with absolute pitch. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Does she ever wonder boy things like: Will we see each other again? Will we hear each other&#8217;s voice once more? Will we die without a last kiss?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I recall being told similar words. A jumping off point, and she knew it. I couldn&#8217;t imagine living without her, nor living in so much pain with her.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-gallery has-nested-images columns-default is-cropped wp-block-gallery-1 is-layout-flex wp-block-gallery-is-layout-flex\"><div class=\"wp-block-image\">\n<figure class=\"aligncenter size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"1006\" data-id=\"11077\" src=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/02\/cjmoon-1024x1006.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-11077\" srcset=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/02\/cjmoon-1024x1006.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/02\/cjmoon-300x295.jpg 300w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/02\/cjmoon-768x754.jpg 768w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/02\/cjmoon.jpg 1080w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><\/figure>\n<\/div><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-audio\"><audio controls src=\"http:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/02\/harvstmoon.mp3\"><\/audio><figcaption class=\"wp-element-caption\">Pearl Jam; &#8216;Harvest Moon (Live in Portland, OR 07.02.2006)&#8217;<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>Relationships are merely agreements between people. Relationships aren&#8217;t real. Relationships are social constructs to aid human interaction.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Relationships are fictions based on the concept of mutual consent; which means surrender of some freedoms for the comfort of having a partner. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Something to be said about lying down with someone at night. Legs wrapped around one another, holding each other tight. Feeling loved.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Gently touching her skin while she sleeps, seeing the morning light fill the room. A grey industrial chic-like hue from the overcast outside. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Some people say there are only five basic fears we all share. All other &#8220;fears&#8221; are manufactured bullshit reactions. Neurotic fears of fears. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Extinction; fear of annihilation. Mutilation; fear of body integrity. Loss of Autonomy; fear of circumstances and\/or lack of options. Separation; fear of loss and\/or rejection. Ego-Death; fear of humiliation or unworthiness.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>A boy starts to wonder: What did I do wrong? Why doesn&#8217;t she write back? How&#8217;d I do? What was my score? Will she ever give me my grade? It all seems painfully odd to me. I was thoughtful. I took the time. I never take the time, but I took the time this time, &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/?p=11076\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">I Fucking Hate Neil Young<\/span> <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[2],"tags":[2666,16,19,2126,2552],"class_list":["post-11076","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-ramblings","tag-harvest-moon","tag-neuroticattorney","tag-neuroticattorney-com","tag-pearl-jam","tag-ramblings"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11076","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=11076"}],"version-history":[{"count":15,"href":"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11076\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":11094,"href":"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11076\/revisions\/11094"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=11076"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=11076"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=11076"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}