{"id":11919,"date":"2025-05-04T10:28:03","date_gmt":"2025-05-04T17:28:03","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/?p=11919"},"modified":"2025-05-04T20:16:45","modified_gmt":"2025-05-05T03:16:45","slug":"they-dont-serve-cocktails-in-heaven","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/?p=11919","title":{"rendered":"They Don\u2019t Serve Cocktails In Heaven"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size\">The words don&#8217;t make sense. I don&#8217;t recognize them, in spite of having wrote them. That was a long time ago. I&#8217;m not that guy. I&#8217;m no longer me. Neither that nor this. Total, yet totally empty. Complete, yet completely alone.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size\">Some people say you don&#8217;t really live until your parents die, focusing on a sense of freedom and self-discovery that often occurs from an actual or metaphorical loss of dependence and\/or strong desire for parental approval. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size\">I think otherwise. I think you don&#8217;t really live until your ego dies, focusing on true freedom and self-discovery that occurs from self-detachment from all third dimensional material things, like worldly labels or titles that own you.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-gallery has-nested-images columns-default is-cropped wp-block-gallery-1 is-layout-flex wp-block-gallery-is-layout-flex\">\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"768\" data-id=\"11945\" src=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/12378A93-F614-4CD9-A1B1-898ADE88A7CA-1024x768.jpeg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-11945\" srcset=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/12378A93-F614-4CD9-A1B1-898ADE88A7CA-1024x768.jpeg 1024w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/12378A93-F614-4CD9-A1B1-898ADE88A7CA-300x225.jpeg 300w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/12378A93-F614-4CD9-A1B1-898ADE88A7CA-768x576.jpeg 768w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/12378A93-F614-4CD9-A1B1-898ADE88A7CA-1536x1152.jpeg 1536w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/12378A93-F614-4CD9-A1B1-898ADE88A7CA-2048x1536.jpeg 2048w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"768\" height=\"1024\" data-id=\"11946\" src=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/D4D860FB-0DB7-4090-9DA4-7395EB1514DB-768x1024.jpeg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-11946\" srcset=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/D4D860FB-0DB7-4090-9DA4-7395EB1514DB-768x1024.jpeg 768w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/D4D860FB-0DB7-4090-9DA4-7395EB1514DB-225x300.jpeg 225w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/D4D860FB-0DB7-4090-9DA4-7395EB1514DB-1152x1536.jpeg 1152w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/D4D860FB-0DB7-4090-9DA4-7395EB1514DB-1536x2048.jpeg 1536w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/D4D860FB-0DB7-4090-9DA4-7395EB1514DB-scaled.jpeg 1920w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 768px) 100vw, 768px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"768\" data-id=\"11944\" src=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/7192C8BE-2FB6-4DDD-B357-AAF7519CCF1C-1024x768.jpeg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-11944\" srcset=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/7192C8BE-2FB6-4DDD-B357-AAF7519CCF1C-1024x768.jpeg 1024w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/7192C8BE-2FB6-4DDD-B357-AAF7519CCF1C-300x225.jpeg 300w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/7192C8BE-2FB6-4DDD-B357-AAF7519CCF1C-768x576.jpeg 768w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/7192C8BE-2FB6-4DDD-B357-AAF7519CCF1C-1536x1152.jpeg 1536w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/7192C8BE-2FB6-4DDD-B357-AAF7519CCF1C-2048x1536.jpeg 2048w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"768\" data-id=\"11943\" src=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/6D611096-E431-4D24-97BA-89C19B3177D8-1024x768.jpeg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-11943\" srcset=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/6D611096-E431-4D24-97BA-89C19B3177D8-1024x768.jpeg 1024w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/6D611096-E431-4D24-97BA-89C19B3177D8-300x225.jpeg 300w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/6D611096-E431-4D24-97BA-89C19B3177D8-768x576.jpeg 768w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/6D611096-E431-4D24-97BA-89C19B3177D8.jpeg 1280w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><\/figure>\n<\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-audio\"><audio controls src=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/mdwrld.mp3\"><\/audio><figcaption class=\"wp-element-caption\">Tears For Fears; &#8216;Mad World&#8217;<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size\">Depression is an elusive struggle; an oppressive weighted fog. Difficult to remember when it started, not really sure what broke, but you know something ain&#8217;t right, until one day you realize that something ain&#8217;t right is everything.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size\">Inside the fog is rough, a complete absence of light, blindly looking for anything or anyone to tether for grounding. More than a mere lack of eyesight, the fog continuously distorts and destroys one&#8217;s entire perception of the world. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size\">Hopelessness inevitably takes hold, takes over your soul; and even those that find their way out of the fog, never really forget that state of hopelessness. All who&#8217;ve felt it are forever haunted by the indelible stain of hopelessness.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center has-medium-font-size\">&#8212;ooOoo&#8212;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size\">That was me at the time. The year was 2015, and I came up with a plan. Instead of riding back-and-forth across the country, I would ride around the circumference, staying away from big cities, visiting all of my bucket list places.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size\">I bought a map, a road atlas, and a backpack, and I started to plot out some places and ideas. I recall thinking things like: I wanna ride the Extraterrestrial Highway because that&#8217;s fucking dangerous and badass (and I like the sign).<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-gallery has-nested-images columns-default is-cropped wp-block-gallery-2 is-layout-flex wp-block-gallery-is-layout-flex\">\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"768\" height=\"1024\" data-id=\"11940\" src=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/320BCFFA-BBB1-4D74-949B-8C68AD79D19F-768x1024.jpeg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-11940\" srcset=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/320BCFFA-BBB1-4D74-949B-8C68AD79D19F-768x1024.jpeg 768w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/320BCFFA-BBB1-4D74-949B-8C68AD79D19F-225x300.jpeg 225w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/320BCFFA-BBB1-4D74-949B-8C68AD79D19F.jpeg 960w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 768px) 100vw, 768px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"800\" height=\"600\" data-id=\"11939\" src=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/7720502A-D8D1-42B7-A115-6F5EB3904F80.jpeg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-11939\" srcset=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/7720502A-D8D1-42B7-A115-6F5EB3904F80.jpeg 800w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/7720502A-D8D1-42B7-A115-6F5EB3904F80-300x225.jpeg 300w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/7720502A-D8D1-42B7-A115-6F5EB3904F80-768x576.jpeg 768w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 800px) 100vw, 800px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"768\" height=\"1024\" data-id=\"11938\" src=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/IMG_0893-768x1024.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-11938\" srcset=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/IMG_0893-768x1024.jpg 768w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/IMG_0893-225x300.jpg 225w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/IMG_0893-rotated.jpg 960w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 768px) 100vw, 768px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"768\" data-id=\"11941\" src=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/IMG_0644-1024x768.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-11941\" srcset=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/IMG_0644-1024x768.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/IMG_0644-300x225.jpg 300w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/IMG_0644-768x576.jpg 768w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/IMG_0644-1536x1152.jpg 1536w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/IMG_0644-2048x1536.jpg 2048w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><\/figure>\n<\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-audio\"><audio controls src=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/kodaa.mp3\"><\/audio><figcaption class=\"wp-element-caption\">Paul Simon; &#8216;Kodachrome&#8217;<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size\">I remember wanting to find unique rides along the way, such as the Tale of the Dragon, the Twisted Sisters, and the Blue Ridge Parkway. I also wanted to hit iconic spots, like Niagara Falls, Mount Rushmore, and Devils Tower.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size\">I had no intention of actually planning a ride. I gave up that nonsense on the second day of my first cross-country ride, when I quickly discovered it&#8217;s best to not plan or reserve anything, so you can be totally free to roam and explore.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center has-medium-font-size\">&#8212;ooOoo&#8212;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size\">The ride started on a Saturday morning; June 20, 2015. The night before, my family gave me a birthday cake, since I would again be riding around the country on my birthday. This wasn&#8217;t the first time, nor would it be the last time.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size\">This ride was different. It would be my longest, figuring around 12,000 miles, which meant quite a bit of risk and maintenance on the road; and unlike those shows people feel compelled to tell me about, I don&#8217;t ride with a crew.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size\">If my shit breaks down, I don&#8217;t have a team to help. There&#8217;s no van, no other rider, no one to even notice me crashing into a ditch. At night, it&#8217;s just my bike and me, camping under the stars, poking a fire for light, and to stay warm.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-gallery has-nested-images columns-default is-cropped wp-block-gallery-3 is-layout-flex wp-block-gallery-is-layout-flex\">\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"804\" data-id=\"11961\" src=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/0F60C5BC-D89B-4F33-974A-0356370A82CE-1024x804.jpeg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-11961\" srcset=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/0F60C5BC-D89B-4F33-974A-0356370A82CE-1024x804.jpeg 1024w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/0F60C5BC-D89B-4F33-974A-0356370A82CE-300x235.jpeg 300w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/0F60C5BC-D89B-4F33-974A-0356370A82CE-768x603.jpeg 768w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/0F60C5BC-D89B-4F33-974A-0356370A82CE-1536x1206.jpeg 1536w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/0F60C5BC-D89B-4F33-974A-0356370A82CE.jpeg 1897w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"768\" data-id=\"11964\" src=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/62B654F9-0810-4E3D-9E2B-DC9A8D3B8D0B-1024x768.jpeg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-11964\" srcset=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/62B654F9-0810-4E3D-9E2B-DC9A8D3B8D0B-1024x768.jpeg 1024w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/62B654F9-0810-4E3D-9E2B-DC9A8D3B8D0B-300x225.jpeg 300w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/62B654F9-0810-4E3D-9E2B-DC9A8D3B8D0B-768x576.jpeg 768w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/62B654F9-0810-4E3D-9E2B-DC9A8D3B8D0B-1536x1152.jpeg 1536w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/62B654F9-0810-4E3D-9E2B-DC9A8D3B8D0B-2048x1536.jpeg 2048w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"961\" data-id=\"11962\" src=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/56EF614C-9EE4-4683-A97B-A6448131C548-1024x961.jpeg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-11962\" srcset=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/56EF614C-9EE4-4683-A97B-A6448131C548-1024x961.jpeg 1024w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/56EF614C-9EE4-4683-A97B-A6448131C548-300x282.jpeg 300w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/56EF614C-9EE4-4683-A97B-A6448131C548-768x721.jpeg 768w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/56EF614C-9EE4-4683-A97B-A6448131C548-1536x1442.jpeg 1536w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/56EF614C-9EE4-4683-A97B-A6448131C548-2048x1923.jpeg 2048w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"768\" data-id=\"11963\" src=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/37548035-9D16-4456-B882-4600EC72B5A2-1024x768.jpeg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-11963\" srcset=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/37548035-9D16-4456-B882-4600EC72B5A2-1024x768.jpeg 1024w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/37548035-9D16-4456-B882-4600EC72B5A2-300x225.jpeg 300w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/37548035-9D16-4456-B882-4600EC72B5A2-768x576.jpeg 768w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/37548035-9D16-4456-B882-4600EC72B5A2-1536x1152.jpeg 1536w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/37548035-9D16-4456-B882-4600EC72B5A2-2048x1536.jpeg 2048w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><\/figure>\n<\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-audio\"><audio controls src=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/sntmonc.mp3\"><\/audio><figcaption class=\"wp-element-caption\">Everclear; &#8216;Santa Monica&#8217;<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size\">These things crossed my mind that morning when getting on my bike, especially feeling my kids watch me from the window. &#8220;You never know what&#8217;ll happen,&#8221; I thought aloud at the gas station, looking down at my &#8220;Day One&#8221; route.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size\">Highway 49 to 120, then something about Yosemite going into Nevada. I didn&#8217;t know how the day was gonna end, but I wanted to see Groveland, where I spent many days litigating a case against the Community Services District.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size\">I also wanted to end my day in Tonopah, Nevada, where Howard Hughes and Jean Peters got secretly married at the Mizpah Hotel; my fascination arising from: <a href=\"https:\/\/www.goodreads.com\/book\/show\/775751\" data-type=\"link\" data-id=\"https:\/\/www.goodreads.com\/book\/show\/775751\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noreferrer noopener\">Empire: The Life, Legend, and Madness of Howard Hughes<\/a>. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-gallery has-nested-images columns-default is-cropped wp-block-gallery-4 is-layout-flex wp-block-gallery-is-layout-flex\">\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"768\" height=\"1024\" data-id=\"11966\" 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