{"id":13327,"date":"2026-02-23T06:58:19","date_gmt":"2026-02-23T14:58:19","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/?p=13327"},"modified":"2026-02-23T12:39:24","modified_gmt":"2026-02-23T20:39:24","slug":"chasing-the-same-old-demons","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/?p=13327","title":{"rendered":"Chasing The Same Old Demons"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center\">They always come to me a little hollow-eyed,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center\">thin-skinned like parchment, breath stirring dust.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center\">Never wanting to ask what carved them into pieces,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center\">knowing only that something did, leaving them broken.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-audio\"><audio controls src=\"http:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/11\/black.mp3\"><\/audio><figcaption class=\"wp-element-caption\">Danger Mouse &amp; Danielle Luppi; &#8216;Black (feat. Norah Jones)&#8217;<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\">\n<figure class=\"aligncenter size-full\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"570\" height=\"428\" src=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/onee.jpg.webp\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-13358\" srcset=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/onee.jpg.webp 570w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/onee.jpg-300x225.webp 300w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 570px) 100vw, 570px\" \/><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center\">I become the quiet match struck in a dark cave,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center\">breath beneath their ribs, hearts remember rhythm.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center\">My hands explore the intricacies of their old grief,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center\">pulling on threads of despair, finally settling down.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-audio\"><audio controls src=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/bacblc.mp3\"><\/audio><figcaption class=\"wp-element-caption\">Amy Winehouse; &#8216;Back to Black&#8217;<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\">\n<figure class=\"aligncenter size-full\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"275\" height=\"183\" src=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/three-1.jpeg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-13362\"\/><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center\">Disjointed half-sentences and long awkward silences,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center\">re-writing old stories, bringing color to their cheeks.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center\">Old birds that somehow forgot they still have wings,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center\">Manic laughter startles in their throats, Vishuddha.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-audio\"><audio controls src=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/crzy.mp3\"><\/audio><figcaption class=\"wp-element-caption\">Seal; &#8216;Crazy&#8217;<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\">\n<figure class=\"aligncenter size-full\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"760\" height=\"543\" src=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/twooo-1.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-13363\" srcset=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/twooo-1.jpg 760w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/twooo-1-300x214.jpg 300w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 760px) 100vw, 760px\" \/><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center\">Their dead flowers bloom against my mouth by morning,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center\">once swearing to not see, now a temporary resurrection.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center\">A safe place for miracles to happen when the pulse steadies,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center\">hips firmly clenched, they stand taller than their ghosts.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-audio\"><audio controls src=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/ikow.mp3\"><\/audio><figcaption class=\"wp-element-caption\">The Moody Blues; &#8216;I know You&#8217;re Out There Somehwere&#8217;<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\">\n<figure class=\"aligncenter size-full\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"274\" height=\"184\" src=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/fiur.jpeg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-13361\"\/><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center\">Of course the only honest ending is for them to leave,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center\">it must be this way, left behind with echoes of their voices.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center\">Faint perfume and memories fill my head with joy,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center\">Never to keep, but to remind them that they were never-<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center\">really gone.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>They always come to me a little hollow-eyed, thin-skinned like parchment, breath stirring dust. Never wanting to ask what carved them into pieces, knowing only that something did, leaving them broken. I become the quiet match struck in a dark cave, breath beneath their ribs, hearts remember rhythm. 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