{"id":13781,"date":"2026-10-13T20:08:35","date_gmt":"2026-10-14T03:08:35","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/?p=13781"},"modified":"2026-10-13T20:18:00","modified_gmt":"2026-10-14T03:18:00","slug":"prologue","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/?p=13781","title":{"rendered":"Prologue"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>I can&#8217;t believe I brought it up. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>          I should&#8217;ve stayed quiet. Kept it to myself.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Now they all wanna know the answer. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>          I gotta put a mask on to play along.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I hate how easily it controls. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>          How kindness and love make a beggar of me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I make a courtroom out of every quiet moment. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>          I like to unpack the years.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Prosecute my self and soul with testimony.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>          Nobody never ever said to me.<\/p>\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\">\n<figure class=\"aligncenter size-full\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"903\" height=\"768\" src=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/CC6B9A5F-9A98-4EAE-9E4F-36D10BA2FBB4.jpeg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-13783\" srcset=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/CC6B9A5F-9A98-4EAE-9E4F-36D10BA2FBB4.jpeg 903w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/CC6B9A5F-9A98-4EAE-9E4F-36D10BA2FBB4-300x255.jpeg 300w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/10\/CC6B9A5F-9A98-4EAE-9E4F-36D10BA2FBB4-768x653.jpeg 768w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 903px) 100vw, 903px\" \/><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-audio\"><audio controls src=\"http:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/03\/lovebuzz.mp3\"><\/audio><figcaption class=\"wp-element-caption\">Nirvana; &#8216;Love Buzz&#8217;<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>It&#8217;s exhausting to always need love.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>          To hate myself for needing love.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I rehearse you leaving me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>          Telling me to fuck off a trillion times or more.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>What did I tell you? You dirty rotten cunt. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>          You unlovable piece of shit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Now you&#8217;ve done it. You&#8217;ve told people. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>          You&#8217;re as loud as loud can be.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Now you seek peace. Solace, comfort, consolation. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>          But why? And why? For why?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I can&#8217;t believe I brought it up. I should&#8217;ve stayed quiet. Kept it to myself. Now they all wanna know the answer. I gotta put a mask on to play along. I hate how easily it controls. How kindness and love make a beggar of me. I make a courtroom out of every quiet moment. &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/?p=13781\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Prologue<\/span> <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[2],"tags":[283,16,19,323,2552],"class_list":["post-13781","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-ramblings","tag-love-buzz","tag-neuroticattorney","tag-neuroticattorney-com","tag-nirvana","tag-ramblings"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13781","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=13781"}],"version-history":[{"count":8,"href":"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13781\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":13790,"href":"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13781\/revisions\/13790"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=13781"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=13781"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=13781"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}