{"id":7516,"date":"2024-11-29T10:10:02","date_gmt":"2024-11-29T18:10:02","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/?p=7516"},"modified":"2025-01-27T11:26:22","modified_gmt":"2025-01-27T19:26:22","slug":"the-life-times-of-john","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/?p=7516","title":{"rendered":"The Life &amp; Times of Jake"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>Let&#8217;s start something new. Something different. Something unique. Lord, I really need a change. A change of scene. A change of mind. Something.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>It is told in Corinthians that Paul said: &#8220;I die daily.&#8221; I get it. I understand. Sometimes, I feel like I die moment to moment. Nothing lasts forever.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Let&#8217;s start a conversation about Jake. Jake is strong for an American. Jake is tall. Jake is strapping. Jake is well educated with family.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Jake has an untamed mind. Jake has thoughts with ideas. Jake has a problem with no apparent solution. Jake has weakness with a gun.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Nothing lasts forever. Most surely there will be relief on the other side. The other side of what; from what; to what? Jake doesn&#8217;t know.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>The gun was cold when Jake pulled it from the drawer, but it&#8217;s warm now. Cupped in Jake&#8217;s hands. Fingerprints on Jake&#8217;s nickel-plated gun.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Jake pushes the latch forward to release the cylinder with his thumb. Jake uses his fingers to pivot the cylinder out of the frame on its yoke.<\/p>\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\">\n<figure class=\"aligncenter size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"768\" src=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/11\/IMG_5102-1024x768.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-7525\" srcset=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/11\/IMG_5102-1024x768.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/11\/IMG_5102-300x225.jpg 300w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/11\/IMG_5102-768x576.jpg 768w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/11\/IMG_5102-1536x1152.jpg 1536w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/11\/IMG_5102-2048x1536.jpg 2048w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-audio\"><audio controls src=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/11\/heyhey.mp3\"><\/audio><figcaption class=\"wp-element-caption\">Led Zeppelin; &#8216;Hey Hey What Can I Do&#8217;<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>Jake sees the cartridges. All six of them. The brass strikingly different from the nickel-plated cylinder. The contrast feels like a smile to Jake.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Pushing the cylinder back into the frame, Jake hears a deafening sound of finality. An impenetrable sound with an irreversible ending. I&#8217;m done.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Pushing the latch forward, this time Jake spins the cylinder inside the frame. The sound reminds him of a roulette wheel. Much better days.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Those jags in Vegas. Drinking all night. Sleeping on warm pancakes. Driving late to Reno. Penetrating Sunny Lane at the Bunny Ranch.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>All parties must come to an end. All trains must come to a stop. All suffering must come to a conclusion. Better on Jake&#8217;s terms, he thinks.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>How did this all start? When did it start? Jake doesn&#8217;t know. Jake doesn&#8217;t remember. It&#8217;s been there so long, it&#8217;s like it&#8217;s always been. Never born.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Jake strangely thinks about a scene from The Breakfast Club:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p>What do you care what I think, anyway? I don&#8217;t even count, right? I could disappear forever and it wouldn&#8217;t make any difference&#8230; I may as well not even exist at this school, remember? And you&#8230; don&#8217;t like me anyway.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>You know, I have just as many feelings as you do and it hurts just as much when somebody steps all over them.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>God, you&#8217;re so pathetic. Don&#8217;t you ever&#8230; ever compare yourself to me. Okay? You got everything, and I got shit. Fuckin&#8217; Rapunzel, right?  School would probably shut down if you didn&#8217;t show up. Queenie isn&#8217;t here. I like those earrings, Claire.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Shut up&#8230;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Are those real diamonds, Claire?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Shut up&#8230;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I bet they are&#8230; Did you work for the money for those earrings?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Shut your mouth&#8230;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Or did your daddy buy those?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Shut up&#8230;<\/p>\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\">\n<figure class=\"aligncenter size-full\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"828\" height=\"595\" src=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/11\/bench-1.jpeg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-7528\" srcset=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/11\/bench-1.jpeg 828w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/11\/bench-1-300x216.jpeg 300w, https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/11\/bench-1-768x552.jpeg 768w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 828px) 100vw, 828px\" \/><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-audio\"><audio controls src=\"https:\/\/neuroticattorney.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/11\/dontyou.mp3\"><\/audio><figcaption class=\"wp-element-caption\">Simple Minds; &#8216;Don&#8217;t You (Forget About Me)&#8217;<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<cite>Why did this all start? How did it happen? Where? With whom? To know, Jake has no choice but to go back. To think about and relive earlier days.<\/cite><\/blockquote>\n<\/blockquote>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Let&#8217;s start something new. Something different. Something unique. Lord, I really need a change. A change of scene. A change of mind. Something. It is told in Corinthians that Paul said: &#8220;I die daily.&#8221; I get it. I understand. Sometimes, I feel like I die moment to moment. Nothing lasts forever. 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